Sometimes blessings come and slap us in the face

Today while at work I was sitting in a send off meeting for people going to a training course that everyone in the room had already been to. This course is not your typical corporate training course. It's about building you and making you the best you can be, not what you can learn to do to make your company better. Anyway, after I gave my little speech to the 3 people we were sending off I realized some really important things.... I have always been grateful that I went through this course, but it wasn't until today (3 1/2 years after the first course) that I realized how truly grateful I really am.

I am a firm believer that EVERYTHING happens for a reason, and the past couple years have definitely been proof that God only gives you as much as you can handle. I became a single mother by my 3rd month of pregnancy and life has been a roller coaster ever since. Being a single mother is never an easy thing, but if I had become a mother before I had gone through this training course I can't say that I would have been as strong as I have been. I've always considered myself to be a very strong person (I have been through many things in my life that has made me this way) but it wasn't until this course that I realized how strong I can be.

So today I thank God for person he's made me become. The path he's laid out for me has not been an easy one, and I'm sure I have many more battles and hills ahead of me. Looking back on everthing that has happend though I can truly say that I wouldn't change anything for the world. I'm proud of the strength I've been given, proud of the beautiful son I have today, proud of the person my son has helped make me and proud of the things I have accomplished. I hope that I can teach my son the strenth I know and teach him to be a better person than I am and to lead a better life than I have. He's given me the greatest gift of all by simply being here, and I will spend my entire life working to pay him back for it.

Today blessings have truly come up and slapped me in the face :-D

iTunes

Going through my iTunes music I realized that I have a ridiculous amount of breakup type music. I don't date much (right now...not at all) and what relationships I've had have all lasted for decent amounts of time, so it's not like I go through breakups all the time and need this kind of music. Apparently though, I'm a sucker for anything romantic or things that like to torture the heart and make you think about the past.

Reviewing all these songs though I noticed that I had some perfect songs for different situations. Let the awards begin....

Award for Best "About To Breakup" song
Slow Dancing In A Burning Room-John Mayer
This song is the best song I've found that describes those crappy final moments with someone when you know that you are coming to an end but neither one wants to admit it.

Award for Best "You Know They're Wrong For You But Still Desperate" song
Desperation-Miranda Lambert
This song is best right after the breakup when you still love that person but know they are wrong for you. That crappy moment when you might questioning your decision and relationship status.

Award for Best "Friends Just Don't Understand" song
They Weren't There-Missy Higgins
This song is for the moments when you're friends have one view of the person you were dating and it doesn't match the true view of the person you were with.

Award for Best "Don't Want To Crawl Out Of Bed" song
One Of Those Days-Joshua Radin
Perfect for those days of depression when you know no matter what you do it's going to be "one of those days".

Award for Best "Lonely And Damaged" song
Easy From Now On-Miranda Lambert
"It's gonna be easy to fill the heart of a thirsty woman and harder to kill the ghost of a no good man" Easy to feel special when your lonely and someone pays attention to you, but hard to start a relationship because you're still so damaged from the last.

Award for Best "Just Ran Into My Ex" song
Over You-Reba McEntire
This song is great when you run into an ex that you're still not over. That very awkward hello and sick feeling you get in your stomach during the whole process.

Award for Best "Giving All You Have, But Knowing It's Still Going To End" song
When You Love Someone Like That-Reba McEntire & Leann Rimes
Explains perfectly giving your everything but the relationship ends anyway, then a best friend comes along and reminds you not to blame yourself.

Award for Best "Admitting They Might Not Love You" song
Consider Me Gone-Reba McEntire
"If I'm not the one thing you can't stand to lose, If I'm not the heir to the heart of you, If you don't get drunk on my kiss, If you think you can do better than this, Than I guess we're done, Let's drag this on. Consider Me Gone" Lyrics explain it all.

Award for Best "Need" song
Need You Now-Lady Antebellum
This song explains perfectly that "need" feeling you get in the middle of the night when you are lonely and missing someone. So you break down and reach out to them knowing you probably shouldn't.

Award for Best "Cheater" song
Shattered Glass-Britney Spears
"Was it really worth it, was she everything that you were looking for, feel like a man, I hope you know you can't come back because what we had is broken like shattered glass, You're gonna see me in your dreams tonight, my face is gonna haunt you all the time, I promise you're gonna want me back when your world falls apart like shattered glass" This song makes you feel better. It's one of those slap someone in the face kind of songs that say "ha you screwed up and you're going to regret it".

Award for Best "Jealousy" song
Crazy Ex Girlfriend-Miranda Lambert
There will always come a time when you find out about your ex seeing someone else and jealousy takes over.

Award for Best "Girls Night Only" song
Knock 'Em Out-Lily Allen
This song is just plain funny! After the breakup there is usually a girl's night (usually out to the bar)and you want nothing to do with guys. Especially the really annoying ones with crappy pick up lines.